Friday, August 31, 2007

Fireman Sam and Oxo

I don't know if I can do it. Oxo has invited me to his place tonight if I turn him down that will be twice in one week. I have told him that I am getting a head cold and keep sneezing but he is not put off ........ says he has several cold remedies etc.

Fireman Sam is stuck at his place with his ironing as he is on call. He has invited me for a quickie before I go to see Oxo lol . If I turn him down that will be twice in one week. If I go to either of them they will be disappointed as I am struggling with breathing as my head cold is affecting my nose. so I am asking myself how much I want to see either of them. Yes it would be nice to see either of them and spending the night with Oxo is always good, but my heart just isnt in it I have as is sometimes said lost my mojo. Thanx Bittersweet for reminding me of that.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

sexy Mr Passionate

Now that I am practicing my new found skill of putting in links I thought I would practice on a post about my own Mr Passionate. I have been writing about him on and off since november. some of it has been real like this, andthis this but some of it is fantasy like this and this but some like this is a mix of fantasy and real. then there is a picture

Tuesday, August 28, 2007


first I am invited out for a drink which I accept, there is more on offer but I agree to a drink and a chat to catch up on the last 6 months or so.

then Oxo invites me to his place for the evening/stroke night

there is a family crisis so I have to decline both invites for tonight it is strange because for the past week or more I have not really felt inclined to have sex I don't feel the slightest bit horny.
then Thomas comes online saying he would like to see my ass on wednesday, I can't believe he means tomorrow but to my delight he does. all of a sudden I feel horny I cant wait to see him. we agree to meet after I finish work. I ask him if he is sure he can make it tomorrow.

not sure have just had a meeting cancelled for tomorrow

so you have some spare time?

yep, well nope, but.........

don't tease me pleaseeeeee

you know you like it

well maybe

I want to caress your curves and kiss your cheeks

so are you going to?

only if you ask nicely

please Thomas will you please please pleaseeeeeee

of course I will, it will be both our pleasures x

he tortures me some more, teasing me with talk of meeting, when I know it probably won't happen he is going to call me tomorrow to tell me where. he wants me to wear jeans so he can see me struggle out of them

oxo comes on line again offering a bath with scented oils and candles to relax us followed by 69 as tempting as his offer is I have declined.

Sunday, August 26, 2007


its hot and sunny I can feel the sweat trickle down my back I look at him curled up on the picnic blanket with his head in my lap. the last time I was here months ago it was raining, I watched the school children in their rain macs as I chatted to my friend over our hot drinks. Today it is like a completely different place. today the snack bar is full of people eating ice creams. The car parks are full, there are large groups of people having picnics, games of cricket and other group activities. the air is filled with the sound of laughter and the smell of burgers and sausages cooking. Looking around everyone seems to be enjoying this summer day so rare this year. Once the sandwiches and fruit have been consumed washed down with cold water he grabs my hand pulling me up from my sitting position where I have been leaning against his car watching the world enjoy this lovely day. together we pack away the evidence of our picnic,lock the car and he pulls me across the grass towards the big map showing all the walks. He is much fitter than me, he has to be for his job. we look at the choice of walks I like the look of the 'short woodland walk' only 3km, he likes the look of the 'juniper walk' 7km with steep inclines. I persuade him that my flip flops won't make 7km. he agrees to a shorter but less popular walk.

I am breathing hard by the time we reach the top of the first stretch of the walk, looking out across neatly harvested fields a windmill on the crest of a hill in the distance, we sit on a bench admiring the view. We have met no one else so far on this walk. I am enjoying this lazy day with him, his arm drapped across my shoulders. I must have lost myself in my own thoughts for a minute as he takes me by suprise when his hand darts up the inside of my shorts. I turn to him and he kisses me passionately. I am melting in his arms as I always do. If ever I got stuck and needed to be rescued I can think of none better to be rescued by. My mind is jumping all over the place as he massages my inner thighs with his left hand, holding my
shoulder with his right hand, no way to escape his grip even if I wanted which I dont. I try to break away from his kiss saying we cant do this here smeone will see us. Nonsense we have not seen another soul yet.

He slides to the ground bringing me with him onto the lush grass. His fingers still inside my shorts he finds my wet pussy prising open my wet and waiting lips. His mouth devouring mine as his body pins me to the ground the smell of fresh grass fills my nose as I lose myelf in the sensations he brings to my body. His fingers now fucking me deep as I writhe to meet him, my hips raised as I push myself to him wanting him now not caring who should see us. He tears himself away from my insistent mouth as he props himself up on his elbow facing away from me now. I know why, he doesnt have to say anything I know that very soon I shall have wet feet as he makes me squirt. My red shorts have been rucked up so that my naked pussy is exposed to the air as he presses into my willing cunt making my juice fly through the air to hit my feet. I am moaning an writhing on the ground his body close to mine but not close enough as my desire builds to a crescendo of twitching muscles and trembling limbs. It hits my right foot first then my left how the fuck does he do that?

But who cares as long as he is here now doing wonderful things to me. I pull him unceremoniously back down to the ground beside me as I fumble with his shorts. I already knew he would be comando just as I am today. I release his hard cock from the confines of his navy blue shorts and demand that he FUCK ME NOW FOR GODS SAKE!! He makes me promise that I will lick him clean after he has fucked me hard. Oh yes please Sam anything you say my beautiful sexy man. He leans across me with my right leg over his hips as he enters me not gently but with a sudden thrust pushing as far into me as my shallow vagina allows. we are both grinding our hips together now lost in our own world here on the grass by the side of the footpath.I feel my juice seeping out of me as he makes me cum again. He is grunting in my ear to the rhythm of my own moans and wimpers. I look up to see his face crease up as he nears his own orgasm, he pulls out and instantly I feel the hotness of his spunk as it hits the top of my breast and trickles down into the hollow of my throat. He pushes his fingers into his spunk on my chest playing with the sticky mess before offering his
fingers to me to lick. I have just finished licking his fingers clean when we hear the sound of children laughing and shouting. he kneels up and sees the family coming our way. we straighten up and he grabs my hand pulling me along as we run along the path. I will have to finish him off later when we get back to his house where my car is waiting for my return.

my sexual journey so far

my journey so far

when I began this journey a little over a year ago my intention was merely to find one or two partners who would help me to fuck my ex boyfriend out of my head.
My intention was to meet men my age or slightly older but not much and have straight sex.They had to be completely single.

The second man I met was 8 yrs younger than me (amazing!!) but even though that was a shock to me. having sex with a man nearly a decade younger omg but I also found out that he was married. He was decent enough to tell me before we met, but by then I had already agreed to meet him and although he would understand if I changed my mind I decided to meet him and just see how we got on. It was so amazing we met up again a few weeks later and although we didnt meet again we remained friends chatting online.

over the next few months I met a fair number of men about 50/50 married /single mostly a couple of years either side of my age.

I met Foxy who is married we got on very well and spent many hours on msn or text. the first time we met was something I dont make a habit of and I am not proud of. he invited me to his office for coffee, nothing unusual in that except that his office is in his marital home. I refused the tour of the house, bad enough being in another woman's home. We had sex on his living room floor surounded by evidence of his family life. Not an experience I intend to repeat. A couple of months down the line we decided to become partners swinging together.

With foxy I experienced a MFM, a FMMF and a MFMFMF. through him but not with him I also had a FMF. I now consider myself to have dipped my toe in the world of group sex though I am by no means experienced in this world.
As far as MFM goes I have now experienced a hog roast but not yet experienced a double penetration.As far FMF goes I have been kissed by a woman and had my nipples sucked and my pussy licked briefly. I have kissed a woman and played with her nipples. I have not fingered or licked another woman's pussy.

Another of my married men introduced me to the delights of anal sex. I found this very difficult and painful at first but he taught me how to be relaxed and make it a very exsquisite experience for me.

I have had a Dom make me his horny slut giving me instructions by text and msn. making me call him so he can listen when I orgasm. he intends to introduce me to his sex slave soon so that the two of them can play with me as I am spanked and fucked by both of them.

I have been spanked by hand and paddle then caned at my own request.

I am not ticking off boxes but I still wish to experience being blindfolded and tied up though not necessarily at the same time. I have now moved on from reading stories of spanking to reading about Dom/sub relationships. this interests me but i am not sure that its something i would want. I have talked about it with a few of my male friends. I have never been to a sex party or a swinging club, both things that intrigue me but whether I will ever do them who knows.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

sexual fantasies

I have a few fantasies in the pipe line but every time I try to write find that I am in the wrong mind set.

As soon as I have something completed I shall post it on here.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Fireman Sam

I have been chatting to Fireman Sam. Hes a very nice fireman and dedicated to the job. As mentioned before he has a knack of being able to aim my squirting. I am not sure if this is down to him being trained to aim his hose or just pure luck but he did it several times. No one else has ever done this or if they did then I didnt notice. He calls himself my reserve as he is aware of my feelings towards Forest he is also aware that I have Oxo. But he wants to be my reserve reserve. Does this make him a reserve fireman do you think? I am sure he and I could talk squirting and whether either or both of us like it for ages. He will talk about being a reserve. He will ask if I want to squirt for him again. He just wont be direct about asking to see me. Last time I gave him every opportunity to say directly that he would like to see me, but he leaves it in my court telling me the kettle will be on if I want to pop round to his place sometime. This time I know he is home tonight he knows I am home tonight he says would I like to squirt again I say maybe. I ask if he wants to he says maybe

So shall I go see him ..........maybe

Monday, August 20, 2007

Lady joins the harem

good morning people I am glad to say I am feeling much better this morning. I am up getting ready for work trawling through the blogs I read and came across this which I did know about but wasn't expecting it quite so soon. Ronjazz has written a story for me as part of his harem collection. To see what he has created for me take a look at sorry I have not figured out how to do links yet but I will soon.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

special friday part two

part one can be found here

I am sure that I swore at him a few times, it really did hurt yet I wasn't ready to stop I knew I could take much more. Part of me wanted to stop but a bigger part of me wanted to carry on. I was amazed how much pain I could withstand just because it was something I wanted to do. I forget now if it was during the hand spanking or the paddle that my nickers were pulled down to midway down my thighs.

He digitally checked to see if I was wet. Yes I was, this was turning me on but to my dismay not as much as reading about it had done. I remember pushing back onto his fingers as he checked me. more standing in the corner I almost fell over as I tried to stand and make my way to the corner. more photos were taken. this time when I returned to the bed one of the large cushions that form the back of the sofa was placed on the bed and I was instructed to lie across this with my ass in the air. I think I receieved more strikes with the paddle before I received the cane, We agreed on 6 strikes to begin with. I don't know which he used first but it was thin and whippy, I received two strikes with this before he changed to a thicker one which made more of a thud. I remember counting 3 and 4 then came 5 my mind was struggling to count was it 5 or 6 the two numbers merged into one in my head I had lost the ability to count. I knew then that although I could physically take more my brain had given up. Just as my mind was formulating this message he said he thought I had had enough. We had both sensed it at the same time.

more standing in the corner for photos then I was laid on my back across the bed as he licked me out. I must have been very aroused as his face was very wet whe he emerged. we lay on the bed chatting for a while then it was almost time for him to go, he was very sleepy by then so I made him a coffee. when he was ready to leave we had a friendly kiss then I remembered that I hadn't repayed him. I said I didnt mind if he wanted me to give him a bj which I then did before sending him away tired but satisfied.

A little under an hour after his departure Forest arrived, the original plan had been for Forest to arrive so that my partner could hand me over, he didnt want to leave me alone but as Forest had to change his plans and arrive later my partner had to go before he arrived. Suprisingly my ass was not too paiful to sit and we embraced on the sofa for a while before moving to the bed where he kissed and licked my ass in such a loving way that every second of pain had been worth it to receive this attention.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Another walk in the woods

He saw them walking down the gravel path towards the duck ponds, she is short with wavy dark hair wearing a loose white top over a lurid pink mini skirt and flip flops that make that flipping sound as she walks. The man is much taller with short brown hair, jeans and black t-shirt. They are laughing and holding hands. They stop by the railings gazing down at the stagnant water where a fallen tree trunk is preventing the water from flowing over the stepping stones down to the next level and the next pond. They chat pointing at things they see then he takes her in his arms and kisses her. She reaches up and kisses him back with her arms around his neck. They kiss for an age before moving off along the path still chatting nineteen to the dozen. They stop again and kiss some more then they head off the main path along a smaller trail leading into the trees. He follows keeping his distance. They stop again the man bends his head down to hers kissing her bright pink lips. Their passions are rising and a trail of moisture is trickling down the inside of her leg. From his hiding place he can just see where the sun is shining on her moisture as it slowly creeps down from under the hem of her skirt. She is standing with her legs apart pulling him down to her. She clings to him as she softly moans into his chest as another trickle of moisture appears on her leg. They giggle as his hand finds the hem of her skirt and disappears. The man finds her wet panties and she giggles again. Before setting off again, arm in arm back to their cars. She has to collect her child from school. He kisses her goodbye and they go their separate ways.

The next afternoon he sees her arrive at the same place. But wait she is with a different man this one is shorter, in jeans and a blue t-shirt. Today she is wearing her black mini skirt with an orange top. She likes her bright colours, likes to be noticed. They chat as they walk. The man helps her across the stepping stones, before they continue along the path settling for a bench in the sun where they sit watching the ducks as they chat. He can’t hear what they are saying, this couple he watches but he sees them smile and turn to each other their faces just inches apart. This is where they will kiss, but they don’t, she turns away and they continue to chat. He sees her answer her phone, this isn’t it. They chat again. A few more minutes of chatting, and she picks up her phone flips it open, quickly shuts it then opens it again. This is what he has been waiting for, her signal.

He leaves his hiding place and makes his way to the path a little way from them. He walks towards them, the couple look up at the footsteps, she smiles, he is puzzled.

It’s my husband she tells him, please come with us. The three of them walk along the path, the woman between the two men holding hands with both of them He leads them both along a track leading to a gate, through the trees you can just see his hut where he keeps all his work tools. He hesitates when they reach the door, tells her to place the blind fold over this man’s eyes. The door swings open at his touch. Once inside he instructs the man to remove all his clothes. Once naked the man is lead across the room by the woman. The man can hear heavy breathing and shuffling slightly to his right, he becomes a little apprehensive.

‘Right now gentlemen I shall explain why you are here’, he addresses the row of blindfolded men each naked and with his back to him. There are six in all.

‘my woman is a hungry woman, you have all been selected by her as the best profiles on the site, each of you profess to be experts cunnilinguists. Each of you have pictures of your impressive manhood standing proud……..we have brought you here today for my woman’s amusement. You will each in turn kneel before her as she lays on the couch, you will demonstrate your cunnilinguist skills, once you have completed this to her satisfaction you will stand before her as she repays the compliment. Now you will be chosen each in turn by myself. How I will do this is random. You will know when it is your turn as you will feel the kiss of my cane upon the flesh of your arse. Some of you I know will enjoy the cane, some of you are cane virgins but everyone of you will await your turn with growing anticipation whether it be with pleasure or fear. My good lady relishes the feel of my cane so be aware that not all cracks of my cane will land upon one of you.’

I shall be videoing this and each of you will get a copy, please keep this for your own pleasure not for public viewing, you are reminded that everyone here would wish to remain anonymous. Once my good lady has given each of you felatio to completion you will each get your turn to fuck her, condoms are provided. The afternoon entertainment will end once I have fucked my good lady myself when you are all done. You will each get five minutes to fuck her so make the most of your time.’



I have been blogging for long enough now that I figure its about time I learnt how to do the links. I have figured out how to write a post, I have figured out how to upload pictures, I can add or remove things to and from my side bar, but I still cant do the links. I have tried and they never work. I am sure that it must be something simple I have missed. One helpful blogger did explain what to do some time ago but it was during a telephone conversation when I was not near my computer and I didnt think to write it down.....thinking I was clever enough to do it from memory of what he said.

oh and I had my first ever chat on google talk took me a while to find where and how but I got there in the end thanx for the chat having my cake. But my contacts list is looking a little empty at the moment unlike my msn which has 140+ contacts and that is just one of my three msn accounts. so if you want to chat to me on google please add me :-D

Thursday, August 16, 2007

the sign is there

I just found a comment from Innocent in response to my post gonna fuck forest again. He says I will as the sign is there. I know exactly what he is talking about.

Yes the sign is there and has been for a few weeks now. When I drive home from work I have to use a junction where there have been ongoing road works for sometime. A few weeks ago a six foot approx sign suddenly appeared. It is on the edge of the road works just by where I have to stop at lights before exiting the junction. It appears to be a road sign that has been propped up about 4 or 5 foot off the ground only it has been turned so that you can only see the back of it and scrawled on it in large painted letters the word..........Forest

It appears to have no purpose yet it seems to have been placed there deliberately.
I have no idea why it is there or what it means but I cannot avoid seeing it.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

gonna fuck forest again

tonight a fellow blogger who I was chatting to on IM asked me

gonna fuck forest again?

i think you will....but i think shouldn't....and move on.........after all...its the journey towards selfhood you're after

it will depend on what he has to say when he gets back
and how long it takes him to get in contact

sure.....and nothing about what you say ?
you have a voice ?

in the meantime im not sitting around moping


oh I know but I will make my decision on what he does or doesnt do and whether i think he deserves me

hmmm.....that assumes he has the power to do this....... some people might observe that're a bit vulnerable here...

in the end I can decide whether i want to still see him or not if i decide not there is nothing he can do but for now he will get the benefit of the doubt.

I have a time limit in my head that if theres no improvement the door closes

keep the faith if you can.....people rely on you |;)

such as? provide a sparring partner...

ok just give me time to prep my jousting stick

Monday, August 13, 2007

special friday

the day started slowly as I finished packing my overnight bag before setting out for work. I am dressed in low cut red top and long flowing red skirt, the recptionist comments how nice I look. I grin and tell her I have a date later. we exchange text counting down the hours, I tell him I cant eat my lunch. he replies that he has no problems. He demands that I tell him what I am counting the hours for. I must tell him the reason. I tell him it is 2.5 hrs until I shall feel his hand on my arse. he says good girl.

finally it is time to leave the office, I am almost running to my car. 30 minutes later I arrive at the hotel, confidently striding through reception towards the room he has text to say he is in. My confidence a facade, my outward confidence slips as I realise im on the wrong floor!!

I find the right room and knock with as much confidence as I can muster. The door opens and he ushers me in , greeting me with a friendly kiss. I am hot and flustered. He tells me to go have a shower and change then we will begin. I change into a black mini skirt and stockings my red stilletos with steel heels red strappy top. He showed me the canes he had with him then led me to the corner where I was to put my hands on my head.

I couldn't help giggling i felt so ridiculous. next he led me over to the bed where he sat with a pillow over his lap guiding me across his lap so that my face was resting on the bed with my eyes just inches away from where he had placed the canes. I don't quite remember but I think he spanked my arse with my skirt still in place for a minute or two. before he raised my skirt tucking the hem into the waistband. He then spanked my bare arse alternating from one cheek then the other for a while then concentrating on first one then the other cheek. I was stood in the corner again as photos where taken.

I was stumbling a little as I walked across the room. Once more across his lap I recieved more slaps with his hand then he changed to the paddle. This I did glimpse very briefly, it was quite small and made with leather, I think it had prominent stitching quite close to the edge but I am not certain of this. But I am sure that the first few strikes with the paddle I could feel the stitching or maybe that was my imagination. He was making sure that every cm of my arse was spanked. he checked if I was ok and I told him that it didnt hurt too much then realised the stupidity of that remark. If I thought that his hand spanking had gradually got harder and harder so did these slaps with the paddle and some really stung.............

part two here

Sunday, August 12, 2007


We sit at that table in the growing darkness chatting as we look out at the view over the city, memories come flooding back. I have been back to this pub many times since but never sat here again since that night a year ago next week. We chat, we smile we have our one drink before climbing back into my car. I try to remember the way to that other place we used to go. As I drive he has his mouth on my naked shoulder and his hand inside my skirt. I have fired off no text to him telling him I have no underwear on as I did to you that first night. As we travel each with our own thoughts not many words are exchanged other than for him to say it’s a long way. My reply that it’s only that the country lanes are twisty and slower to travel than the motorway we could see a few minutes before. Finally we reach our destination, rabbits scatter in the beam of light as the headlights sweep across the deserted car park. It is an earlier hour than when we used this car park before. We climb into the back of my small silver car.

I am on my knees on the back seat as I bend over him to take his hard cock into my mouth, like you he goes commando. Funny of the men I have met since you left I can think of none who go commando. He is enjoying my attentions then motions for me to move so that he can slide his head and shoulders along the seat. He positions himself so that his face is under my wet cunt which he has been working with his fingers. He licks and sucks as I return my attention to his cock. He shoots his load much sooner than I had expected, I swallow every drop. We both readjust our clothing as he steps outside for a cigarette, just as you always did. He gets a message from his friend wondering why he isn’t at the pub yet. As I drive he says he had not expected that, it seems that although I had told him earlier, before we met that I do squirt, he hadn’t expected it to be so. I text my friend to tell him, that I am with my Dark Master. After all these months I never expected that I would eventually meet him. Oh I nearly forgot to say that while I was giving him head he was spanking my ass, but to me his spanking seemed to be very light and hardly worth doing, I did consider asking him to slap me harder, but decided to leave that for now. He has plans for me. He has his sex slave coming over from Canada next month. Between them they intend to make my fantasy ‘Her surprise’ come true.

I have been thinking about you a lot recently, possibly because it is a year now since we first exchanged messages on the night I returned from my holiday. I miss our crazy chats, I miss deciding to meet in an hour at our favourite burger bar for a cuppa and chat interspersed with snogging as we look out at the view before heading off to indulge in hectic sex. I miss your text as I go about my day, as you tell me such mundane things as how long you had to wait for new tyres to be fitted to your car. I miss the text we exchanged when you were staying with your mum when she took ill, or when you were away on business with no women to entertain you. I miss the sight of your naked form as you gaze out the hotel window to watch a deer trot through the car park while you have a smoke in the early hours. I miss the taste of your kisses, a mixture of coffee and tobacco. Funny, how I liked that taste on your lips even though I don’t smoke or drink coffee.

There are other men in my life now, I have done many things since last we spoke, I am sure you would approve. You did tell me that you were sure I would enjoy having two men giving me attention. I sometimes wonder where you are, if you are safe. If, anything happened to you I would never know, that thought saddens me. I wonder about when you return if you will contact me then or am I in the past for you now. Just a memory, nothing more. We may not have had long before your sudden departure back to the country that was home to you for so many years. But those five weeks were heavenly.

Saturday, August 11, 2007


I lay here on my bed
the covers kicked aside
the air is humid and uncomfortable
sleep wont come even though I am weary
my hand wanders over my chest
pulling at my nipple as
my mind wanders through the
memories of our words
I adore you my sweet
I adore the words you use
as you tell me I am your angel
as you describe how you lust
what you wish for us
I remember your desire
for me to go about my business
with my vibrator inside me
as you imagine it to be
you very own fingers
that caress and nudge
my g spot as I move around

my fingers trail away from my
breast moving away and
down my body
touching and exploring
the flesh you crave so much
to again make yours
the heat coming now from within
driving my mind upwards
as I imagine you here
your lips on mine
your fingers caressing my
love button
driving them deeper and deeper
as I drive my vibrator
in and out in and out
sliding more easily
now I am wet for my knight
but I wont call you that
even in my mind
for me now my knight has gone
instead I have you the man
not the figment of our imagination
I am filled with the image of your
gentle eyes as they fill with lust
my ears ring with your soft voice
words of debaucherie
before you call me
your perfect lover

Friday, August 10, 2007

ok ok

Ok ok so I have promised myself that I will stay true and only see Forest, but maybe I will also see Oxo when Forest is being elusive.

But then there is Mr Passionate who I hadn't seen for over 5 months does that count that we had a couple of hot and horny hours of passion last week. It was after all an opportunity we couldn't pass up.

I have been chatting at great length to my knight for the past few days after no contact between us for 3 months. we talk of meeting again, he talks of our illicit affair and that I must be careful not to mark him with my nails. we no longer talk of our fantasy but in real life terms.

ok so now that is Forest, Oxo, Mr Passionate and my knight thats four lovers for me. I was feeling off kilter yesterday after my knight told me he loves me. I believe he meant it at that moment but not in the greater scheme of things. I needed a distraction so took myself off for walk by the sea something I dont do often enough considering that I live a mere 3 miles from the sea. I saw many men wielding fishing rods, I had no idea our local beach was so popular for beach fishing. there were many couples strolling hand in hand which makes me sad that I have no one to go for an evening stroll with.

I text a new man (Sam) who lives not far from where I was, he invited me round for a cuppa. Sam is well aware of my feelings and refers to forest as 'your man'. He asks if he can be on my reserve list. He says he knows the score, he will look but not touch. I follow his directions and within minutes am sitting on his sofa drinking tea. Sam is lovely, great to chat to. He tells me I am exactly as he expected, open, honest, chatty, giggly, sexy. after much teasing and giggling he kisses me. soon he is fondling my breasts( I had been there 1.5hrs before the first kiss). I now know that when I am told I am a squirter I really do squirt or at least when in the hands of a handsome fireman I do.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007


Maureen Ruby Collier (better known as Mollie to her friends) was sat on the bar stool waiting. She knew it wouldn't be long now. Mollie had been staying with her uncle Jack and his wife Kath for the summer before she returns to uni in the autumn. Her parents had suggested she stay with Uncle Jack as a summer job. She was working behind the bar tonight, she liked thursdays, it is always busy. Thursday is quiz night, a popular weekly event in The Cygnet. The Cygnet is one of the few proper pubs left in the city, being a Free House not part of one of those commercial chains that are taking over most of the pubs. Uncle Jack still has a couple of fruit machines, a dart board and a pool table in the far corner.

The quiz doesn't start until 9pm but Mollie knew the crowd of friends who came every week, mostly single men in this group would be in between 7pm and 7.30pm. sometimes they came early and had their dinner before the evening got into full swing, other times they just played pool and the fruit machines before the main event of the night. there are usually 5 or 6 of them in the group. Tonight Mollie had made up her mind, she only had three weeks left with Jack and Kath.

Mollie was popular with the punters, they enjoyed her humour but really they were more interested in her firm but ample bust with her pert nipples that stood out like small bullets. Mollie feels a rush of adrenaline as the group walk in but there are only four of them. she calmly serves them while searching for him to come through the door. She wants to ask them where he is but she doesnt know his name. besides she is overcome with shyness not wanting his friends to know she fancies him. 8.30pm there is still no sign of him, it will be her break soon, its the quietest time for the bar when the quiz is going. maybe she will just go up to her room this evening. But just at that moment he walks in with another man she has not seen before, he is shorter and darker than him. Kath serves them at the other end of the bar, before they take
their places at the usual table ready for the quiz.

this group often come in the top couple of teams, last week they won! Each member of the team has a specialist subject, one is sport another music, his is films and TV. soon the quiz starts and there is a hush as the punters scribble their answers onto the sheets of paper before them, Ray the DJ announcing each question twice just to make sure everyone understands it. Half way through there is a break while the first part of the quiz is marked. The group stand around the pool table as two of the friends begin a match. He is leaning on the table nearest the pool table. Mollie leans over the bar and hisses to him psst, psst sorry I don't know your name. He turns around to find himself staring right at her breasts. He flushes and says you can call me Bob. Mollie comes around the end of the bar to stand beside him as he flips peanuts at his friend while slurping his beer. A brackish brew, characterised by a milky head and sour finish.

well Bob I was wondering if you were free one night you might fancy a chinese takeaway with me after I finish work.

Just as Bob opens his mouth to accept he suffers one of his not so infrequent bouts of eructation. the stench is so bad that it drives Mollie away, she flicks her jet black hair over her shoulder and flounces off muttering 'what manners!!' Bob's friend Wayne has watched this and realises what has been going on. He rushes after Mollie to placate her. 'don't mind Bob he wasnt being rude that was just the after effects of all the coke he drank at work today. give him a chance you just never know do you ?'

These three men

He is very quiet but seems self assured if a little shy. he takes me in his arms and kisses me. he holds me against his chest. He strokes me gently with his soothing hands and lovely tongue. He brings many smiles to my face even if he can't see them as he is otherwise occupied. I feel safe in his arms. His body covers mine, I feel secure and cared or. I am above him I feel exposed but wanting his gaze upon my face, my chest, he caresses my heart, soul and body with his fingers and eyes.

He is full of energy even at this hour, he is vocal about his passion for me. His kisses urgent, there is much making up to do as we make out. he says fuck!! I say thats the idea! He takes me every which way, we both soak up the others presence. He makes me feel wanted and sexy. He wrings every ounce of passion from my body as he thrusts into me and my body strives to respond with as much vigour as he has.

He is my friend, he greets me with a friendly kiss. He takes control although neither of us can be completely serious, even with the pain he inflicts we laugh and giggle. He is constantly aware of my feelings and immediately senses when I am ready to stop even as the thoughts reach my own brain. We are comfortable together, so much so he falls asleep for a few seconds. His biggest concerns this afternoon are
for my well being. He is my friend indeed.

Monday, August 06, 2007

what I learnt

• I giggle too much
• During the first few slaps with a leather paddle you can feel the stitching
• I feel ridiculous standing in a corner hands on head knickers half way down my thighs
• A hand can hurt as much as a paddle or a cane
• Stilettos are not ideal footwear when being spanked
• I lose the ability to count when being spanked
• Thin canes sting, thicker ones thud
• Pvc tape comes in girly pink
• I can take what I am given without crying
• I can stand my ground without flinching when threatened with a cane across the hand
• My giggles were through amusement not through nerves
• It is not a good idea to say that it doesn’t hurt much when being held across a lap being spanked
• I don’t talk much when being spanked
• Being spanked makes me very light headed
• I look good wielding a cane
• I know when it is time to stop even though I know I could have taken more
• Being spanked makes me wet though not as much as I had thought
• I would happily do this again
• I enjoyed the TLC that came later
• Would I want to get involved in the spanking scene not really
• The marks very soon become bruises

Sunday, August 05, 2007

He is back !!!

this morning a friend text me asking if the thing with my knight was still going on of course I said no as there had been no word from him since start of May.

But he was online this afternoon and we chatted he apologised for letting me down

he still wants me, he wouldnt let me go, everytime I tried to leave he called me back
what it is to be wanted ;-D

Saturday, August 04, 2007

my lover

As he steps through the door the first thing I notice is that his designer stubble has become more like bristles but I take that to be down to the fact he has just finished working a night shift and I am more used to seeing him in the late morning when he has just got up for the day. He takes me in his arms and the 5months feel more like 5 days. It doesn't take him long to have me on my back while he devours my very wet pussy. Once he has had me writhing in unadulterated pleasure he strips off his own clothes and makes hot passionate love to me. I am not going to describe what we have simply as sex as it is so much more than that. We connect on more levels than purely physical. he fucks me long and hard the way he knows I like, my legs bent back with my feet around his waist before he moves bringing my legs up with him so that my feet are pointing into the space above him as my ankles rest on his shoulders he thrusts into me in the deep missionary he so loves. Mmmm I had forgotten the intensity of this position. He rolls me onto my side entering me from behind. we chat as we rest before he has me lying on my front so he can access my ass. He comments on the marks asking if I had been having fun and got carried away. I tell him I will explain later, right now I am getting breathless as he trusts deep inside my tight arse. He is very vocal about his pleasure as he fucks me. Unlike my cunt he can thrust his whole shaft into my ass.

Again we rest and chat catching up on our news of the missing months. He tells me he has been offered a job in another part of the country, the money is good but he won't be taking it. what a relief, how could I lose him so soon after finally getting him here now. We both know it is highly unlikely we will see each other again until september as it is ( which I remind him is now only next month.) Oh god how I enjoy teasing him with my tongue and fingers as I take his already hard again cock into my hungry mouth. I have forgotten my lack of sleep as I tease and lick his cock from head to base taking my time licking, sucking and fondling his balls. He does so love his balls played with. as much as we are both enjoying this we don't want to waste this rock hard cock he gets me onto my side again as he enters from behind then reverting to the deep missionary again, he senses that I am tiring I am rolled onto my front again as he slides upto the hilt into my by now slippery ass. By this time daylight creeps through the gap in the curtains. He checks the time he must go before he gets caught out. But he just cant resist banging into my cunt one more time before hr drags himself away back home to his wife.

I was asked today if given the chance would I have a proper relationship with him, the answer has to be yes but as he is married it is not something I let myself think about.

Thursday, August 02, 2007


I laughed so much I cried at work today.

I did something that was either very brave or very stupid

I had mentioned to the 3 people who work at the same group of desks as myself that i write. what do I write they had asked. fantasy is all I would tell them. They (the two guys wanted to see this). Today I gave the one nearest to me a disk with 3 fantasies on it, when you get here, nervously, and lastly working late.
I thought this would be a good sample of different styles of the less pornographic fantasies. On arriving at work this morning I handed the disc over expecting that this would be looked at at lunch time. No he copied to his pc then emailed to the other guy (wayne coff lookalike). they both then sat in silence as they read my work. Wayne keeps saying I have a way with words. Bob however wants to know why banana flavoured and who keeps condoms in their desk drawer whilst hoping that the work on the laptop was saved before it was closed!! Bob says he liked 'nervously' the best of the three. I have decided to write a fantasy about him (don't get me wrong this is not me fantasizing about him). I just think he is so funny and it would be hilarious to watch his face as he reads a fantasy then realizes that he is the main character. In the early afternoon out of the blue I received a text from dark master.

Hello horny sexslave.Im working in Bristol at the moment staying in digs. Shame u cant pop up and get a sound spanking lol. cant get the image of u bent over the knees of a hornywoman being spanked as I fuck your mouth x

I showed this to Bob and wayne. for the rest of the afternoon there were comments coming from my left about being face fucked. later I can't remember what started me off I began laughing the more they said the more I laughed, I couldn't speak I was laughing and crying so much. today I wish I wasn't wearing mascara!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

how many ?

how many men can a girl see in a week without being greedy

I have been good for months now, ok ok maybe not as pure as driven snow but still I have only seen Forest and thats only been about once a month. so what is a girl to do when she gets lonely and there is a nice guy who adores her. Of course every few weeks she takes comfort not only in his arms but in his bed too. so thats Forest and Oxo. there is no one else or is there.

At work today two of the girls asked me if I had a nice date last night and without thinking I said which one. Oooops I had to say that I had a drink with one man then later visited another. I didnt say that I stayed over night. They asked me which is the one you really like then? Oh well thats someone else. So I made a quick retreat back to my desk before the questions got going, they were already saying so you are seeing more than one man then, my reply was 2. well I am only 'seeing' 2. the other men in my life are friends aren't they ?

I was exchanging emails with OG the otherday and she was saying she gets confused about all my men so maybe I should list them on here as I did for her.

my men = 1) Forest mmmmmmmmmmmm friend turned lover

2) Oxo fuck buddy seen him 4 times

3) Mr Passionate (was PL) married lover from last autumn not seen since feb but we both want to when we get chance ......the one married man I couldnt give up

4) Damien = my spanking master

5) JJ is poss Dom, wants to tie me up spank me and then get sexual. there is talk of me having a session with both of these two. see 'Shock' on kindred

6) N ex boyfriend now trying to get me back again (no chance)

there are no other players in my life at the moment. although there may be someone new on the horizon soon. (been chatting to one or two new guys ......

does this last 4 months have only had 5 shags (4 oxo and 1 forest)

sorry that should now be 5 oxo

In the last few days I have managed to chat to Forest online a few times, I have now (today) told him that I am to be spanked. He says I am a naughty girl and probably deserve to be spanked.

I need to get showered now and prepare myself for my date with a new man who I shall call Chip. I have been chatting online with chip on and off since last summer. We got as far as arranging to meet once months ago. I can't remember now whether it was me or him who cancelled. We have not chatted for ages. On monday he began chatting again and by the end of the chat we had agreed to ahve the date we didn't have before.

So within a week I will have seen Damien, Oxo, Forest, FF and this being greedy?


I doubt whether I shall hear from chip again, although a nice enough man there was nothing there and my face now hurts after over an hour of benign smiling!! Any one who knows me knows that when I get going I can talk and talk. In the whole time I was with chip I may have spoken for a minute possible 1 1/2 at a stretch.