BRNG IT ON!!!

Ok so there have been a few, no! several posts of late about the subject of spanking. I fear I am becoming obsessed with the idea. As I said in the last post I am scared. I have never liked pain, I am a real baby when it comes to pain. So why am I inviting men to deliver pain to my ass. Why do I court punishment? Yesterday I sent a joke to several men, the reply from JJ was.

Not very funny! Anyone who sends jokes like that deserves to be spanked.

So what do I go and do? I send another joke!

While I was out last night (bored out of my skin) I began chatting by text with my Dark Master. He says that he had accepted my decision not to meet but he is happy to still chat. Then he tells me that he has a week off work so we can party. Although I had made the decision not to see him the idea of having some fun with him is a little thrilling but regretfully I tell him that I shall be working. He didn’t know that I am working again at the moment.

I have made up my mind that I will have my planned spanking with my friend. We are both up for this and he has begun making preparations. I have more or less accepted that I won’t be meeting JJ for a spanking although we often discuss what will happen when we do. I know we both want it. But there are two things which prevent this from becoming reality. Firstly as much as he wants this and he dreams of what he wants to do to me, he does have a girlfriend and his conscience gets in the way. The second is that he openly admitted to me when we met a couple of months ago that he is not good at making the first move. He needs to be pushed into action, but once pushed there is no stopping him. I do enjoy our chats about the possibilities open to us, whilst knowing that it won’t happen.

But if he ever does get the courage to make it happen it will be a bonus. He is quite local to me so we can decide at the last minute to do this. I could be at his place in 10 minutes. I get very aroused when chatting to him knowing how easy it would be to make this fantasy become reality; I also enjoy the sexual connotations that come with this fantasy of his. He has made it abundantly clear that through out my punishment he would be digitally checking for moisture that would give away my sin. For it would be a punishable sin for me to be aroused whilst being punished. I know that I would indeed be dripping as just the very thought has me wriggling in my seat wanting to bring this about. I want to be disciplined; I want to be found dripping with arousal so that I may experience yet more punishment of a varied and increasing severity.

Anyway, the more I think about what I am going to experience with my friend, (I really should give him a name to make this easier. Maybe Damien as he will have a devil of a job absolving me of my sins.) The more scared I get. The more scared I am the more I feel compelled to carry this through to its end. I have emailed another blogger for some advice, he has given me a website to look at. This I have done and have registered with a spanking site. I have read a few of the stories and later when I get some privacy I intend to spend some time looking at the picture gallery and videos as well as going into the chat rooms. I really am keen to find out from other people what they get out of spanking. I think from what I have read so far that the situation with me and Damien is unusual. Most spanking stories seem to be between people who are in a relationship or are using the spanking as part of a sexual act. Damien and I are friends and as I have said I trust him implicitly and shall accept his judgement as to which implements he will use on me and in which order. We have met so there will be no suprises there, we are both fond of each other so I know I don’t need to worry that he will go over the top. I know he will keep my best interests in mind. Now we have the intention, he has the implements all we need are a time and more especially a venue. If it were at all possible I would say lets do this now tonight but without a venue and forward planning (families) we have to wait. I have said that I will have the time to carry out our plans once the school term has finished and I don’t have to rush home from work. I can just head off to wherever and spend as much time as I need to, so that’s another 2 weeks away ;-( .

But that gives me another two weeks or more to read and see so much more, in my mental preparations. I think it amuses Damien when I talk as though I intend to enjoy this. He is very serious about it and tells me that it isn’t for my enjoyment. I know he is quite correct and how could I find enjoyment in pain which I would under normal circumstances do my level best to avoid. Pain and the Lady do not readily mix so why oh why am I so adamant that I desire this pain, I crave the humiliation that will go hand in hand with my pain. Perhaps this is my subconscious way of dealing with my sluttish behaviour of the last year. My atonement for what I feel to be the behaviour of one who does not merit the position I hold in this life, my battle to reconcile the slut in me with the good middle class mother I strive to be.

What ever the reason I crave this pain and humiliation………….

BRING IT ON!!!!

Lady and the Knight part six

I am deeply touched to learn our correspondence the best mind fuck you have indulge in to date. I too find it extremely erotic and am sure your discretion will keep our identity and whereabouts unknown. Fucking you with words is so pleasurable and never fails to have me rise to the occasion each time you fuck me in return. Perhaps we'll both find any response it might generate on your blog equally exciting and maybe intensify our arousal for one another. I lust after your promiscuity as ever. S :-x

My dear lady, ***** my adorable mind fuck slut You leave me in a constant state of arousal and utterly desirous of finding you absent of the vestiges of any couture 'cept that which you might think titillating and make you feel vital feminine and sexually desirable. I find you invade my mind with no warning and chivalry demands I acknowledge dutifully your bountiful charms that present themselves to my minds eye. But duty it most certainly feels not, as I find myself in an automatic state of erectile salutation of the beautiful and ample images invading my consciousness. I find my fingers rome and begin to play in an almost unconscious and effortlessly rolling rhythm over the soft helmet of my armour and in so doing the intensity of my feelings for you heighten beyond any reasonable control at which point all I desire is to have you watch me exhibit proof of my desire for you and then to kiss you with utter passion on the very same spot my evidence displays itself. I will have your company my lady, in a day or so, but know this, that with every mouthful you see me enjoy with you, in my mind I shall be wishing it were your very maidenhead I would be consuming. One day my Lady *****, you will give yourself to me so completely that I shall know you, every inch and sensual curve, every erotic fold of flesh, every succulent depth both tight and loose, I will take you and between us we will confirm what a glorious slut my lady honestly is. Until the I next time my Lady, when I can release you from chastity, I bid you a good fare well. Your knight, Sir *****, to whom you submit your most depraved sluttery for my pleasure. xxxxxxxxxx

I am positive you will enjoy my postings for today when you get the chance to peruse the content your ever excited and mentally fucked lady slut

My Lady I did enjoy most gratifyingly and look with anticipation to the next admission to your slutish behavior. I have bad news of tomorrow, I may not manage to get to the computer in order to indulge your fancy nor to indulge mine, lest I sneak a moment from the trials of the day away from my desk. I am heavy hearted and will desire you all the more for the absence of having you fuck my mind with you erotic words and my pleasure in fucking yours mercilessly I am as ever my Lady *****, joyous to have you as my slut. Your Sir :-x Do you ever wish to be subservient to your Sir? Think on.