swinging

Originally I began this blog to tell of my adventures as part of a couple in our search for fun with others. Last week I spoke to my partner (we have not had much contact in the last few months as he has been very elusive). We both agreed that we were happy to have a break from it for a while. I am not sure whether or not I still want to continue these adventures. Not because I don't enjoy them but because I have decided to cut down on the number of lovers I see. I have decided that NSA is no longer what I want. SL told me that he was having a break as the whole thing was getting very samey. The only thing that was very samey was the difficulty in arranging a time and place when everyone could make it.

Today I learnt that he is still playing and has now teamed up with a younger woman, someone we had talked to about joining us in a 3some and perhaps in a 4some with another man. I feel hurt and betrayed, I don't mind that he has done this or that he has teamed up with her. What hurts is that he couldn't be honest with me and tell me himself. I had to hear it from someone else, someone he had approached to have a foursome with mentionng that he used to be my partner but is now with this other lady.

I have now met someone who I like very much and I hope that this will develope into something more. Our original contact many months ago was through my partnership with SL. This man was part of a couple but they had split up. I told him today what has happened with SL. we are now discussing the possibility of the two of swinging together. But first we have to see how well things work out for the two of us. This is something I will have to think long and hard about. whilst I feel I still have not fully explored that side of my sexuality and the idea still arouses me,
I am not sure if I would be able to play in a group situation with a partner who I care about. I am not sure how I would feel about this man who I like so much having sex with another woman in front of me, even with SL I felt a tinge of jealousy even though I was having sex with her husband.

foursome

After all the planning for last friday first we were going to meet mr and mrs P but they had to put it off til this week due to work commitments. then we were going with C & N (option 2) but communication with SL stopped so we couldnt confirm details, but at the last minute they had to dash across country to sort out a family problem. Now I find that the problem with SL was that he was ill in bed for several days.Last night my phone was buzzing for hours as I was getting messages from both mrs P and from SL. We now have a time and a place and a day (well evening) all in place ready for us to get together as a foursome again this coming friday. After no sex for 2 weeks I should be quite sore on saturday as I also have a lunchtime date with GP. I shall be really happy if this comes off as I have not seen SL myself since he dropped me off after our last meeting with mr & mrs P. that must have been about 6 weeks ago!

Keeping a straight face

On saturday evening N came over to stay at my place for the first time since last July. I wasn't feeling too great and warned him that I might not be good company. But he didn't care just wanted to be here with me. We had been planning to go clubbing for the first time, we could never go to the local chicago Rock cafe before because SF was always there. Now, I don't care if he is. But we just pottered at home before deciding to go out for a late drink. It was already 11pm by the time we went out. We went to the new pub in town (converted church) this closed at 12 midnight but that was ok we had a bottle of Cava in the fridge and some cans of guiness. when we reached the car we sat chatting for a few minutes looking at the people still waiting to get inside chicago's. there were a few police talking to the clubbers.

N started a conversation that I hadn't expected. He was talking about how strange some people are and what they wear. He has a lot of porn sites on his pc including ones that show leather and pvc gear that you can buy. This always strikes me as odd that he looks at this but doesnt like the idea of it. Anyway he went on to say that some people are so strange that they even have group sex. 3 somes and some even have 4 or more. He would never ask me to do that as he knows it would not be something that I would like. Anyway not to worry because its not something he could do himself as he likes to give his attention to the woman he is with.

How I didn't laugh out loud I don't know. He would be mortified if he knew what I have been upto.

Now you probably think I am awful for going behind his back like this but I know that as much as I am enjoying his company for the moment our relationship will be short lived. Our track record as a couple has proved that. If I was in a long term serious relationship I would give up my other lovers.

The tinge of jealousy I felt when I saw SL with KP the other week told me that I couldn't do this with someone I love.